The past two weeks have been a bit blurry… not any particular thing, just a lot of everything. The good stuff and the “i’ll take a rain check, thanks” stuff, swirled in a turgid* life-slurry. Marginal amounts of sleep, list-making during meetings, frantic stops at the grocery for necessities, napping on airplanes.
Late nights, laughing and drinking and emoting with good friends. Watching my mother eat like a human termite. Getting a ‘disconnection’ notice on my sewer and water for failure to pay (HUH? i’ve paid it monthly? What the fuck?) and not having time this week to call to get it sorted.
Plunging through a massive bureaucratic butt-plug and finally getting a start date for a new assignment. Eventually convincing my boss that the best thing for the organization is for me to go away… Taking my first cartload of ancient reports and files to the shredder bins. Shuffling my feet in a happy dance to the music in my head as i pushed the empty cart back to my office.
Having visitors for seven straight days. Four days with Mom – tense at first, but unexpectedly pleasant. Three days with a great friend who was in town – warmth, late nights and the traditional “groping of the breastages”….
Friday night – finally! My plans for the evening disintegrated – a calenderically-challenged DJ / dance buddy had gotten the date wrong for a performance event. That’d be for tomorrow night… oops.
Home. Alone. Quiet. Munching over my options…
Hopped in the jeep and dragged my mutt to the dog park for some butt sniffing (him), ball chasing (also him) and mindless drooling (both of us…). Gorgeous night. Painfully blue skies. Yips and squeals of the kids on the playground punctuating the start of summer. On the drive home, being splattered with dog spit as Mr. Pickles recovered in the breeze, i decided that a ‘down night’ was in order.
Settling in to catch up on work e-mail, i queued up the audio tracks**. Decided to try a different channel… something new. Found one with a rather stupid name “AM Radio Hits”. Thinking that i was susceptible to a slide back into the dark places i’ve been scouting lately, this seemed an upbeat, mindless soundtrack to have rolling in the background.
First song? “Get Up Offa That Thing“***, James Brown. As i wandered into the kitchen, shakin’ my ass as if my life depended on it, i decided that it would be perfectly ok to finish half a bottle of wine while eating cinnamon bagels for dinner. My toaster was toasting away, cinammony goodness wafting into my brain and the next song began: “I Think I Love You“, Partridge Family. ISHITYOUNOT. Partridge. Fucking. Family.
Within seconds i reverted to the socially retarded 10 year old girl with a drool-festooned crush on David Cassidy. i’m dancing in the kitchen. Show-choir style. Jazz hands, bitches! Checking my form in the reflection of the microwave oven. “I’m afraid that i’m not sure of, a love there is no cure for……” [screaming while striking a pose] “I THINK I LOVE YOU!”
From there? “Joy To The World“, Three Dog Night, “I Second That Emotion“, The Miracles and “Low Rider“, War. But then this happened. Within seconds, i was literally jumping on my furniture, sproinging merrily around my living room. “Bright Side of The Road“, Van Morrison.
Joy. Experienced with the person i’m going to spend the rest of my life with… She’s ok sometimes. She doesn’t dance nearly as well as she thinks she does, and her voice is a bit strained at the high end. But she’s a good fucking time…
My dog? Thinks i’m batshit…
* “turgid” is my favorite word in the english language. especially when paired with “loins”….
** Rhapsody. Streaming on-line digital audio for about $12/month. Anything i want. Whenever i want it… About a bazillion channels, with names like “Acoustic Dawn”, “Big Classic Rock” and “Alternative Hits”… i also make up mood/activity driven playlists. Like a big-ass iPod, wired throughout the Barbie Dream Condo. Sometimes it makes me so happy to have a soundtrack anywhere i am at home that i just want to pee my pants.
*** If you do not at least do a little head boppin’ when listening to this song? You are dead. Seriously fucking dead…. or seriously fucking white….